Random Sayings

She wished all her memories were of the good times but the bad times kept coming back to haunt her.

There were happy days, when she would walk around in a daydream with nothing but a smile on her face, catching herself giggling as she walked down the street when a joke of theirs would suddenly pop into her head. Then she would fall into days of deep dark depression; then finally build up the strength to be positive and to snap out of it for few days.

It was a tiring process and most of the time she couldn't be bothered battling with her mind.

Friends and family came and went; sometimes helping her with the tears, other time making her laugh . But even in her laughter there was something missing.

It was time to stop hiding in the dark and to hold your head up high and come face to face with the truth.

'You don't have to put on a brave face all the time, you know'

Whatever lay ahead, she knew she would open her heart and follow where it led. 

In the meantime, she would just live.

'P.S. I Love You' by Cecelia Ahern 

Thankful

God’s love remains steadfast and sure. That’s a love we can trust. In times like these, hold on to His promise.

"Be thankful in all circumstances"

Now, i am fully recovered! Kamsahamida ! Need to concentrate for examination. Focus! Maybe i'm too excited for the upcoming holidays. In two weeks time, at time like this, i will be leisurely sleeping on my own bed in my home sweet home . yaaayy !

Once again, Kamsahamida!

Unnecessary ‘Sacrifice'

Different people will have different interpretations of certain issues, words written or the actions portrayed. No matter what the sayings go, I know where I stand. I know my life better. Just don’t dramatise any unnecessary ‘sacrifice’ because it won’t entertain my heart at all.

Updates

I have just recovered from a terrible-headache-diarrhoea sickness which for the first time ever, i skipped a class ! i really can't afford to even stand for minutes. I was forcing myself to walk in and out of the toilet. Even during the dance practice i felt like collapsing on the floor. It was damn-ly tiring and headache-ing. I wish i could just faint anywhere. The worse things were the food was tasteless, i had a sore throat and I just don't feel like going to clinic.

Luckily the sickness does not last forever. Thanks roomate for the panadol and cool fever! not to forget my friends around for your concerns, Kamsahamida! I am gaining my energy back, all the food become tasty again, no more spending so much time in the toilet and i am able to dance gracefully on the stage :D

Can't wait for the show! Two more days. I hope everything will go smoothly and please be healthy dear may! 

Reminiscing the memory of musical night in 2009. We were the newbies back then. Yayy ! Such a wonderful memory to join the dancing troupe in IPBL :D

Here i am now, counting days for..

musical night 2012

exam to end ~ jiayoouuu !

&

flight to go back home! I miss I miss I miss my home !

I have long lists for things to do and places to go for my holidays this time.

FUNNY thing happened today ~ I was sitting comfortably on my chair this evening and suddenly i felt my hand was thinner than before, like i was touching a thin skin and i can feel the BONE part ! and suddenly i just had this automatic movement to cafeteria. I rushed to the counter, ordered my food and had it eaten as soon as possible ~ i feel that i am becoming thinner than before. Is it because of the sickness or did i loss my memory on eating my dinner. O dear, i want to lose weight but feel scare if in no time i become like a skeleton walking around ! ~ okay i know this is not funny at all.

But really, i need to congratulate myself for taking my dinner today. yaayy! 

Till then.

12.10.12

It is a nice date today ~ 12.10.12

There are some points in my life where i have nothing more to ask. Everything is more than enough. All i want to do is to thank God. Day by day, i learn to understand every single thing that happened. People who come and go. Things that happen, things that come to me. They leave some wonderful memories in my heart, should be cherished forever. I learn to understand that there are just some things that is not mean for me. Life is a long journey and might end unexpectedly. When we die, we are not going to bring the money we have or the position we hold or the status we stand on or the beloved people around us. It is going to be between you alone and God. Though it is seem to be an individual battle, it doesn't mean we should be selfish. It is the heart that counts and the love you share with others. It is how we accept each other regardless of the physical appearance, wealth, education level or rank. It is how we value the differences that exist in every humankind. Even though we have the faith but it is nothing if it is not demonstrated in actions. Sometimes it is not about being good or bad, it is to do the right thing.

I want to and I will

These days have been so good to me. I have had a good, happy and great day. Well yes because all the assignments and tasks were submitted. The marks are in, only left with the exam part which will start this end of month. But still, i haven't started with my revision. I am still leisurely enjoying my free time. Following activities around. But it is alright, i need some fresh air. Need to socialise with people around after weeks cramping my brain with all the assignment stuffs. 

Tomorrow, we are going to have a netball tournament. How i wish that everyone could join. Because honestly, i play for enjoyment not for the sake of winning only. If winning is the point of participating the sport, then we should start with the training earlier like months ago. It just for fun. But it's okay, all the best for us tomorrow. Do cheer for us yaa. Musical night is coming in less that 2 weeks where the show will be on 21 October, at night. Can't wait for the night to come ~ lets dance together :D The dinner was great and the RunNat was awesome! Both moments are cherished in my heart ! Looking forward for these events next year.

Today, we had this talk with our lecturer about our overall performance in study. I can feel that most lecturers are just not that happy with us. We are the first batch of TESL and the one who is spotted by the MQA in 2014. I know we should do better, not just individually but as a group. But I know we could, we want to do better and we will do excellently. Being teacher is not as easy as one thinks off. Yes, the pay is high and we get long holidays, but guaranteed job is 'NO' on next year onwards. We do need to go through some kind of interview before posting. Teaching in class is just not to make the pupils learn but we also need to take care of the classroom management, different learning style, surrounding area, tools we used in class and everything, not including the filing & records, exam, discipline problems, GERKO, and so on. Yes, every profession has it advantages and disadvantages too. But what makes teacher profession so special is that, a teacher could mould one's future whether to inspire them or to put them down. Most of us stand on our path today is because of our teachers back then. Even sometimes, children believe their teacher more than their parents. Yes, teacher holds much powers that one could think off. That is why we really need to build our proficient, not just for the sake of teaching but to inspire one, to touch the heart of the new generations.

Anyway, we have two more years to go after this semester. Yes, more focus is needed. But at the same time even though study in my priority now, i will not forget all the beautiful things that come along the way. I don't want to stuck myself with all the notes in room. I want to join other activities too. Going for a trip, dancing, participating in any competition, playing sports, outing, laughing, reading novel, playing games, spending times with family and friends, jogging or at least go for a nice evening walk. Seize every moments.

Yes, I want to and i will :)

A Prayer

God proves to be good to the man who passionately waits, to the woman who diligently seeks. It's a good thing to quietly hope, quietly hope for help from God. It's a good thing when you're young to stick it out through the hard times. When life is heavy and hard to take, go off by yourself. Enter the silence. Bow in prayer. Don't ask questions: Wait for hope to appear. 

(Lamentations 3:25-29, The Message).

~ Spiritually Single ~

'Where Rainbows End' [Book Review]

Cecelia Ahern is one of my favourite author. The first novel written by her that i read was 'PS I Love You'. Since then i fall in love with her writing. Simple language yet could captivate my heart and leave some wonderful insights for me to ponder along the way. Hence, I bought the second novel by her, 'Where Rainbows End'.

This book is about love and friendship. Everything was written in a form of letters, emails, instant messages and postcards. I like how each word is twisted around. This book portrays the friendships between Alex and Rossie. Through years, there is a spark of love circling their friendship. And for the ending part, you might want to read it by yourself.

This book makes me wander if two best friend could fall in love with each other. I never have any boy who is so closed to me where we can act like really like a 'crazy friends'. But i do have some whom i am comfortable talking with about anything. Is it 'that' what we call best friend? I am not sure either. Haha. But if i am to fall with one i will be singing the 'Lucky' song by Jason M.

P. S. Okay enough with the rambles, need to get ready. I have a dinner to attend tonight.

Tomorrow will be participating in RunNat. need to save some energy to run tomorrow. It is a run and pray activity, anyway wish us all the best.

A girl, A woman, A lady

Know me by heart, not just merely on my appearance.

Pelangi Senja

Listening to this song makes me want to visit the Mabul Island again. My friend told me that the video clip for this song was shot at the Mabul Island, Semporna. I am not a fan of island visit before until i stepped to Mabul Island for the first time last June. The view was incredible and i just love everything about it. The fantastic scenery, warm breeze, sandy ground and breath-taking air. But just be ware that you might need lots of sunblock or else you will be sunburned which could last like one month if it is not treated immediately with the after-sun cream! I wish to go there again and next time should go for the water activities. Tell you what, Semporna should be in your must-visit-lists. If you have the chance to go to Semporna, do stop by the islands. It might be quite expensive but it is worth.

I want to go there again. Yes, one day !

Last but not least, say hello to October !

It's month of Rosary.