ICC Camp 2011

I had been to ICC and it was great awakening! I enjoyed all the activities that we did there like group sharing, praise and worship, taize prayer, animation, creative report, movie watching, games and so on. there were 13 of us from IPBL who had participated this 3 days and 2 nights camp.

Through the camp, we were exposed to these four elements of gospel values ~ hope, faith, love and freedom. these sentimental values give great deal of impacts to our life. i learnt about freedom the most. everyone is free to lead what kind of life they want to live. even at the moment we started our day, we have to choose! we have the power to choose what kind of day we want to go through ~ happy, sad, motivated ~ everything is up to us. but still, we should always bear in our mind that there is a limit for everything. we should know how to draw the line between do's and don's in our life. though we are free to choose, still there is a boundary that we should not overlook. yeah, that is freedom!

Apart from that, sis Lisa (the program's coordinator) also told us that there are 'white wolf' and 'black wolf' in every man. so, it is up to us which wolf we would want to feed more. but remember that, don't over-feed the 'black wolf' or else it would 'overtake' you and i am sure that you guys know what's the consequences.

Overall, i really enjoy this camp. hopefully, i can join something like this again in the future. to my amazing friends - elsie, libe, jus, usun, cecil, lesley, dolo, allan, mathew, yanson, easther, erwin, thank you for making my days so much fun. not to forget the organizers team and participants of Inter Campus Camp 2011, you'll will be missed.

I Never Told You

I miss those blue eyes, how you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep
Like there’s no sunrise, like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What I should have said
But I never told you
I just held it in

And now, I miss everything about you
I can’t believe that I still want you
After all the things we’ve been through
I miss everything about you, without you

I see your blue eyes, everytime I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to, when I’m not around you
It’s like I’m not with me

But I never told you
What I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in

And now, I miss everything about you (still you’re gone)
I can’t believe that I still want you (and loving you, I never should have walked away)
After all the things we’ve been through
I miss everything about you, without you

But I never told you
What I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in

And now, I miss everything about you (still you’re gone)
I can’t believe that I still want you (and loving you, I never should have walked away)
After all the things we’ve been through
I miss everything about you, without you

Updates

Sometimes, i feel that the time is flying so fast that i could not even realise that i was breathing ! oh no, it is going to be the 6th week of studying soon for this sem and i haven't really settle down everything. I know that i had been sleeping like a baby for days (night + day), eat & shop endlessly when there was nothing to do. And the worst part is that, i havent done anything for the assignments which mostly are to be submitted before this coming holidays in few weeks time again. See!

I will be back to Sabah in 5 weeks from now and have my SBE there again (see the dates that are highlighted in pink, that is my holidays!) This time i will be doing my SBE at Kiulu, at my uncle's school. Hopefully, i will have at least a companion there. But now,i really have to settle down everything. Need to start up with assignments and the given tasks. There will be a lot of research-doing in this sem. Our BIG is coming soon but it will be a charity work only. No more camping, no more rafting ! Basically, everything in sem is mostly the same as what we have had for the 1st sem, like having PBS, BIG, assignments, and portfolio of course ! and finally the examination. but something different is that i am a full time JPP ~ but don't worry, i have wholly accepted this responsibility in my heart.

For the activities part. After the holidays, we are going to have a kind of carnival (which reminds me of our book affair day) here which is one of the tesl's activities. Can't wait to see all the little children around. Next week, there will be a camp at St Lukas. It is Inter Campus Camp (ICC). I will be going for it, yaayy! another thing is that i am joining the IPG drama again. At first, i was given a character but i refused it cause i know that i am really 'suck' when it comes to acting part, seriously! so i will just join the dancers - KUDRAT TARI. This time, the drama will be at Miri which is after the raya holiday.

Hopefully, everything will be fine this sem. 

And the things that i can't wait for this year is the celebration of the SYD cross which will be coming to our church at the end of the year! yeah, here comes the memory of SYD 2 again. may God bless the cross journey ! so now is the perfect time for me to settle down everything!

Thanks to everyone

It was a great night!

If i could, i would want to personally say thank you to everyone who had involved directly or indirectly in making the 'Sambutan Ngiling Bidai & Penutupan Pesta Kaamatan' a successful event.

I know that it had been a tiring days of preparation. Sometimes, i feel so tired, not physically but mentally. I had been worrying so much about the event because there were so many things which were still left hanging. I was afraid that the event wont go as what we had planned. Plus the last minutes changes made me feel uneasy. Even at the night of the event, my heart was strained, and keep on saying that everything would be okay.

Thankfully, everything went well. Now, i feel more relieve. I am so happy that everyone is willing to lend some helps, and spend their time during the preparation of the event. To my close-mates, i am so grateful to have you guys there when i needed you all the most.

It had been quite a challenging moments for me. Plus, it was the first time, i was fully involved in organising an event with my two other members under JPP. Out of all, after all the difficulties we had gone through in organizing this event, i have learnt some lessons which are, there is no easy way to achieve something. Sometimes, we have to sacrifice something to gain something. It might hurt us but just endure it, cause the pain will worth at the end.

Above all, i thank God because without Him we wouldn't be able to carry out this event.

"Sambutan Ngiling Bidai & Penutupan Pesta Kaamatan IPGKBL 2011"

"Sambutan Ngiling Bidai & penutupan Pesta Kaamatan IPGKBL 2011"

organized by 'Biro Kebudayaan dan Kesenian Ahli Jawatankuasa Perwakilan Pelajar 2011/12'

Miss Borneo IPBL 2011

One of the most awaited events in our institute is the 'Sambutan Hari Gawai & Pesta Kaamatan', but this year we have changed the name of the event to 'Sambutan Ngiling Bidai & Penutupan Pesta Kaamatan'.

This name is chosen to celebrate the ending season of Gawai & Kaamatan fever for the Borneo Malaysian people. The climax moment of this event is the 'Kumang Gawai & Unduk Ngadau' Competition. This year, the competition will be different from the former years where usually the winner will be crowned as 'Kumang Gawai' / 'Unduk Ngadau' for the girls and 'Keling Gawai' for boys. We are not looking into that category of winners. Instead, we decide to open this competition for all the beautiful ladies of who study in IPBL and surprisingly, we do have an Indian girls as one of the contestants whom is my own classmat. The sole winner will be crowned as MISS BORNEO IPBL (which is the first time ever!) Hopefully, this event will go smoothly as being plan. The date will be on 20th of July 2011, 830 pm at TAZA. I guess, all IPBL-ians are excited to know who will be the 1st MISS BORNEO IPBL!

To all the beautiful contestants, it doesnt matters who is the winner, because we are all beautiful in our own way.

Giving up

I have realised that there are things that i need to give up to move on. But now i am not yet ready for it, hopefully i will in time. I know that He is telling me something. He is approaching me in so many ways to tell what is 'it' about. I wont be able to fully move on with this thought and certain things in my life. I really don't like to be dependent especially to someone. Sometimes, i do feel that it is wrong for me to fall at the first place especially in this position right now. When the time comes, i hope that everyone would understand about it and help me in prayer.

Happy Sunday and GBU all.

you.and.them.are.BLESSINGS.in.my.life

I have chosen these words -you.and.them.are.BLESSINGS.in.my.life- as the title for my blog for some reasons.

The first one is because i believe that everything that comes to my life, good or bad, is a blessing. Yeah, its true that at some points in my life i do feel unsatisfied with the things around me. I complained and blamed people. But after complaining and said those things out, then only i feel a bit relieve. At times, i choose to keep my dissatisfaction inside or just ignore it. After all the bad and moody days go away, then only i realise something. The pain that i had gone through was the one that makes myself stronger each day. It teaches me something about life. I have learnt that there is a reason for everything and it will be only revealed at the end, which is on the right moment.

I still remember the moments where i had lost my spectacles during our drama competition in Sibu last year, that moments had taught me something about being grateful in life. I can't really remember how i lost it. The only thing that i knew that time was blaming myself for being so careless. So, i had to see with my blurry sight for few weeks. I wanted to buy new spectacles, but i was worried that it would cost me a lot of money, cause the price of the spectacles which i lost was around rm200, and that was almost half of my allowance. I don't want to burden my parents asking for money anymore. So i just kept quite and bear with the situation. In class, i almost lost my interest in learning literature cause i can't see the written words on the board. Then, after few weeks, i went to Saberkas with my classmates, and that day i didn't know why i really feel like stepping into the spectacles' shop. Right at that moment, i called my mom and honestly admit to her about my lost spectacles. Surprisingly, she just asked me to buy new one. So i went to the spectacles shop and saw a pair spectacles which was exactly the same with the design and colour of my former spectacles, and it only cost around rm60, almost 3 times cheaper than the former one. That was great!

Most importantly, at the end, the 'moment-of-having-no-spectacles' makes me realise that i am so blessed that i still can see through my eyes even though it is blur cause there are people out there who can't even see a single thing on this earth. We should be grateful for all the things in our life. It is not wrong to complain, just say out all your worry, cause God will be listening all the times. Everything will take place at the right time. good and bad things are surely followed by a blessed moment one day.

I strongly believe that you.and.them.are.BLESSINGS.in.my.life:)

'Facing the Giants'

As usual, every Thursday night, we will be having activity at the chapel. The activity for this week was movie night and we had watched this movie - 'Facing the giants'. It is such a wonderful and full of motivation kind of movie. It brought some refreshment to myself. Lessons that i have learnt from this movie are:

everyone fails at some points

stay humble but confident

face your fear

whatever comes to you life, leave it all to GOD

Sometimes it is not the problem that is chasing us but it is a challenge that we have to overcome and can only be solved in the present of God in our heart.

Me

I know that people do notice how quiet i am sometimes in the crowd. Being like that makes my presence absent. But i don't care at it all. I don't need any attention from anyone. Even though it is quite 'uninteresting' to be surrounded by people like me but it is the fact that everyone has to accept. Maybe my 'un- talkative' nature has failed to entertain people around me. If my words ever hurt you, so sorry for that, i just can't be the person that you wish to have. I know better the best way to channel out all my thoughts, feelings and unspoken words. There are just some things that i would love to keep it all by myself, a little secret which is only known between me and Him.