2016 update!

Hello.

So I didn't write anything for the passed months this year and realising the the clock almost tick on the last month this year. How was life? Great as always!

I am glad to the fact that I am still here. Surrounded by people I love. Great job. Lovely kids and everything that just come in between. I wish that I had spent more time on engraving those moments that I have had, but that is okay. Everything is well recorded in my Instagram and Facebook I guess. Still, I miss writing. 

This year, I am just thankful for everything. It is like all the courses are running smoothly and God really keeps me in a great pace. Blessing. 

Milestones. I did achieve some. 

I got myself cling to fitness this early year and lose some kilos. People are talking about it to. That motivate me a lot. And most importantly, I joined runs. I ran for half marathon in my best time. I and had that constant jog stamina. Yet, I am running out of pace these days. I hope I could be back to track as soon as possible. And 1 reason to lose weight effectively in to lower the sugar intake. If possible, don't take it at all. I usually just order a warm Chinese Teh Ping or hot Teh O. Unless I am not in that good mood, you will see Coke by my side.

I went for travelling. Yes, it was an impromptu decision to. But still best things ever happened. Cause that was the time when I get to put away all the unpleasant feelings. I went to Jakarta and Bandung with my colleague. Achievement unlocked!

I bought some *expensive (I would say) for myself. But again when I think about it, nothing to regret. Because I am aiming on living the moment productively and rewarding myself with those things help me to get engage with my task with quality. You know in life you gotta set some standard to yourself and work up to it. Anyway, it helps me to live the moment. 

Work. Not my favourite word but the KIDS. I am in deep love with them all. That is one of the reasons why I love my job so much. I see the growth and progress every day. I got the chance to share and motivate them. Though I am not that motivated all the times. There were days when I have to deal with the parents too. But thankfully up to now nothing serious comes up. And surprisingly, almost everyone is on our side. Kids, we have so much more to do. Let's make more memories!

Lastly, I met him. Yes, we met! 

I am just thankful, blessed with everything. Family, friends, colleagues, everyone and you!

But something that keep me down recently is to the fact that Gary has left Running Man. It feels like part of me are tearing too. No more Monday Couple and Gary. You know that when you are a fan of Running Man, you will get that grieving feeling inside. But that is life. It makes me ponder on things too. Life is like that. Somehow someone or anyone will be leaving though the journey has not ended yet. All the best, Gary oppa!

TEACHING JOURNAL - WEEK 12

As future educator, it is important for me to develop my proficiency in many aspects, such as knowledge about my major subject, various language skills as well as the life skills and to widen my experiences through the exposures in the journey as a teacher trainee. By going through the 3 phases of teaching practice, it helps me to widen my perspectives in viewing the ‘real teaching world’.

In this third teaching practice in SK Green Road, I had encountered various types of real situations in teaching world which some I never expect at all. I admit that there were days where things were just so challenging and I did feel like giving up. However, through every hurdle I managed to see the positive sides of things that were happening with the guidance given by the people around me. I believe that teaching is not easy yet I come to see that life as a teacher is a blessed one. A teacher has the power to carry some impacts especially to the young souls as well as to touch the life of others along the way.

As human, it is normal to have all the negative feelings and to experience the meltdown points. Most importantly is not to give up easily in every obstacle encountered. To be a future educator, I need to learn to be a ‘multitask person’ as teacher job is not just to teach but stretch beyond that: a manager, a recorder, a facilitator, a mediator, a coach and the list goes on. Thus, it is very essential for me to always be mentally, emotionally and physically prepared for all the things that I will be experiencing in this journey as future educator.

As I am still at the inexperience level, I admit that it was quite hard for me to cope with things around especially in managing the class and ensuring that ‘real and meaningful learning’ is taking place. I feel that it is important for teacher to develop a positive teacher-student relationship in order to create more motivating and fun learning environment. When a teacher manages to be like one, the same positive vibe will be reflected among the pupils too; that they may treat each other well too.

I have learnt that making mistake is part of the learning process. There were days when I feel that the activities conducted were quite boring, not that interactive and too far beyond the pupils’ level of proficiency. Yet, from that I learn so many things which help me to conduct more suitable and appropriate teaching and learning activities in the class.

I come to realize that the most important thing is the real intention to teach. It is not just for the sake of imparting knowledge or completing the job as a teacher but also to develop the personality sides of the pupils. A teacher is to teach and inspire young souls to become a competence individual in every aspect and also to be a ‘wise man’ in making decision in the future.

I am thankful to have wonderful mentor and lecturer who always guide me through this phase of practicum. Indeed, both of them are very experienced, supportive and dedicated! The staffs and teachers are also very cooperative and willing to lend helps at any time. The relationships fostered through the stories shared on their teaching experience inspire me in so many ways. I salute their dedication and commitment in the teaching field. They are indeed great role models. Not to forget my awesome practicum mates and course mates (PISMP TESL January 2011) for the brilliant teaching ideas shared and random jokes cracked which make each day full of happiness despite of all the workloads.

In this phase of practicum I am taking two classes; Year 4 Tun Hussein (English class) and Year 4 Tun Abdullah (PSV class). Honestly, there were days when things get so challenging; experiencing the unstable emotions, questioning the capability as a teacher, and everything that comes together in between. Yet, the moments shared with the pupils always make everything worth and it means a lot to me. Those little souls teach me how to view things differently, to be happy without reason, to be spirit-filled and energetic all the time and to appreciate every single little thing in life. Being with them for three months is only a small part of time spent in their life, but I hope the moments shared, the happiness sparked, the tears shed, and the lesson learnt will carry impacts that will last for a lifetime. I hope nothing but for each and every one of them to be great individuals someday!

Again, thank you so much to SK Green Road for this opportunity to be part of the ‘Greenians’ community. The time spent, the lesson learnt, and the memories made will be treasured in my heart forever! It is true that though the challenges were so great at times, one could discover the joy in teaching if his or her heart to teach is at the right purpose. With all my heart, I believe that this journey as Future Educator is a worth one and the ‘call’ to be a teacher is part of the blessings in my life!

Miles Apart

I never thought that my days in SMESH will be filled with wonderful memories which is a lifetime lasting. Not just about the memories, but the people I met, knew and connect with! Being together, as a group, or perhaps like a 'gang' has no intention to create any gang-up culture. Yet, the friendship among the 11 of us is unconsciously built but intended by Him. He has reasons for putting each of us on the line, regardless of the time of meeting. And yes, so much cherish-able memories created in those years until this moment.

 4th - 7th Nov 2007 marks the first trip we made through together (excluding Jenny and Nancy). It has been 6 years since then. I miss those moment! Honesty, I have no idea that I am going to meet such wonderful company which are more than friends, they are like sisters! I miss those days spent together, telling dramatic stories, laughing, shedding tears, eating, singing, dancing, portraying some so-called-teens-crimes and the lists go endlessly. I couldn't write everything descriptively because it will take forever. High school days, they always remain me of good old times, memories created that are imperishable. 

Though we are now stepping on different ground, get rarely in contact or meet, but still the bond is strong, so strong! And sometimes, I thought that we could read each others' minds that at the point of breaking, some of them will show up at that exact moment. God must have created us in such away that even we are miles away, we are inseparable and unbreakable. It is not just about being understanding or accepting each other flaws but more than that. Most of the time, it is putting up with each other, the good and the bad, the right and the wrong, the best and the worst. Yet, just because we look perfect together doesn't mean we never experienced conflicts, we did and so many of them. But the blessings that come together with the friendship are strong enough to win against the all odds.

Though we are miles apart, but we are close at heart. On one fine day, we shall get together and drunken ourselves with the best friendship's toasts ever!

Happy Anniversary!

13 July 2009, I met 13 unfamiliar faces and a lady who is my roomate since then! We attended our first lecture together as the smallest group in the IPG, 15 trainees. The group was completed with the coming of the two ladies on the 10th of August. Today, it has been 4 years of us walking down the path together. Used to be the smallest group for years and the most multi-ethnics group in the whole college. Though we are small in number but I am proud to have such wonderful, full of talents and great course mates. Each of us, being hand-selectively, has our own niches in different fields and the what make us Awesome! I am so thankful to have such great lecturers who constantly inspiring and encouraging us to soar high; to discover and maximise our potentials and that is what we are going to aim for in the career we are to be someday. Not just to learn and teach but to inspire the heart of the young generations. Dear TESL mates, I am glad to have each of you and thank you for being part of the 'Time of my Life'. 

Happy Anniversary to all PISMP January 2011 teacher trainees all around Malaysia!

Happy Mother's Day!

When i was in my Primary school, my mother saw an old friend and said to me, 'She is one of my friends in high school and now she is a teacher'. I was so little to understand why my mother said so.

When i was in my Secondary school, there was one time my mother suddenly told me, 'When i was at your age, i wanted to be a teacher when i finish my school years'. But, she did not further explain the story.

When i got my interview result for Teacher Training Institute, my mother was constantly reminding me to give my best for it.

When i was accepted to the Teacher Training Institute, my mother was the happiest person.

Now, i understand why.

For some reasons, i am walking down this path for the blessing that comes from my mother. Though she didn't get the chance to be one, but her daughter is. 

Back to 1988, on my parents' wedding day. I am not sure how did my mother feel when she was wearing the bride's gown and saying out her wedding's vow on that day. But I am sure that God has planned a wonderful journey for her as a loving wife and caring mother. Indeed, she is more than that, a blessing!  

Happy Mother's Day dear mother. May God bless you always.

Blessed Good Friday

Months ago, one of my friends said to me why i always 'Thank God' in everything, like every blog post i have written that word. At first, i was not aware of it, but i come to realise it each day. Yes, because the situations that i went through before have taught me to thank God in every state of life, no matter how positive and negative things were. I believe that God must have been preparing me in different situations before, to occupy myself with certain qualities, to enrich myself with various eye opening experiences before i could step on this life position. I believe that with everything that is given to me has something to do with the things around and the people i meet in this stage of life. I believe the same thing happened to everyone too. If not now, you are almost there. 

Happy Good Friday :)

Kejohanan Olahraga 2013 IPBL

I know I got so many things to be completed and submitted in these few hours to go, but i couldn't resist myself to just write short and quick updates on the KOT. 

I am so thankful that everything went well. Everyone was working cooperatively and dedicatedly. I was amazed that things were working so fine and smooth. The lecturers were so happy and feel proud of us. PISMP January 2011, i couldn't pass the thank you word to each of you, but i know that everyone had given their best in the tasks assigned. Not to forget all IPBL-ians, thank you for the supports. 

As usual, i am taking events too! Last minutes decision, but indeed i was satisfy and completely overwhelmed. 'Winning over medals and against other people is good, but winning against yourself is much more better.' True! Amazingly, this time i was actually savouring all the moments while running, seeing how each and everyone whom i passed by never stop supporting along the way and even the crowds were cheering actively! My heart was fascinated! Indeed, that is how life goes! 

Picture with the 'Olahragawan' 2013, the Woody Stick a.k.a TESL sibling, Mr. Wan. He deserves it after months of preparing and practising! Congratulation Wan!

I have seen too some souls whom run with full of determination. Giving their best! That is one of the reasons why i have always love Sports Day. The athletes were awesome! Indeed, the best scene in Sport Day was not on the one who reached the finishing line first but on the one who run at the last place towards the finishing line with full determination. 

Yes, at first I quite worry that things won't run as planned, with all the last minutes preparations. But i have faith in it. Seeing everyone working and things run smoothly on the days were like a miracle. I truly believe that God puts me in certain position to learn from a new angle, to leave some impacts to some souls and for 'real' purposes. Above all, I thank God for everything. :)

Little things in LIFE

In 4 more months, I will be entering my 22th years old age. Time flies so fast, isn't it? When my parents were at this age, it was the 'perfect' time for a girl be be married. But now, in this new era of generation, most ladies would like to focus more on their studies and establishing themselves in the career as well as to be financially stable before settling down. In between, there are some things that need to be put on hold until the right time come. 

In this state of life, i feel so blessed. Looking into everything, it is so beautiful. Yes, i am thankful despite of all the mix emotions and unexpected things in life. Having my family and friends around complete the circle of my life. I learn to see the little blessings and appreciate each of them. I was knocked down but gain the strength back to get up. Sometimes, i did complain on things but that is how i learn to see the different sides of life. 

When i am at the stable state, God made me to be the blessing to others' life. But that stable state won't last forever either, i do need some helping hands and everyone does too. Humans are created with the good and bad traits as well as with diverse strengths and weaknesses so that they are able to find the balance point in their life. So that, they learn to support each other reciprocally. The differences complete the human relationships. Life is just unexplainable. Different people have different says about life. When you are moving on your path don't fasten yourself forward, learn to slow down and enjoy the ride in life. That is how you will see the little things that matter in life. Life has many chapters too and it is up to us to doodle something on that chapter or just leave it blank for the rest of the life. I choose to enjoy every chapter, put some memories in them. Indeed, God has a great plan for us but we have to make the first step to begin something. 

Above all, I thank God for everything in my life and for making me to learn and see the little things in life.

Happy Blessed Sunday :)

Farewell 2012!

In 2012, i learn to be thankful in whatever situation i am. Everything is just more that enough. Thank you Lord for the blessings in my life. Though things are just so hard, so unexpected, so heartbreaking, so painful, and hopeless sometimes, i am thankful that He always there for me, never fail to lift me up. Thank you Lord. 

Indeed, there were times when i just want to stop being at some places and stop meeting some people. The feeling was so strong but still something keeps me on walking on that road. I am so thankful that people around me, family and friends, never stopping reaching out their hands for me. Never stop  giving motivating words and cracking jokes to lighten up the environment. I am not able to pass the word thank you to each and everyone of you but i appreciate every single things you did. Thank you friends. They are the anonymous saints sent by God to me. 

In 2012, i may have hurt some hearts too, maybe a lot of them. I sorry for it. I may have been selfish at some points. I may have uttered some unpleasant words. I am sorry for everything. 

I just want to be thankful for everything in my life now. For every single thing i have, every single person around me and every single moment that happened. 

Thank you everyone. Thank you Lord :)

Humble

I went back from church last night and had this so powerful feeling inside. I feel like thanking all the people around me. Somehow and somewhere everyone plays significant parts in making who i am today. They are the anonymous saints sent to me everyday. Happiness, sorrowful, joyful, frustrated and whatever feelings that were impacted to me helps to build my thoughts, values and faith. In between everything, i learn the power of humility in life. 

'The greatest miracles are the unspectacular ones; the greatest saints, probably, are the anonymous ones. "Should you ask me: what is the first thing in religion?" wrote St. Augustine, "I would reply: the first, second and third thing therein is humility." What about love? Isn't that first? Without humility love is not possible: there may be some activity of the ego disguised as love, but there is no love. Humility is the altar for which God receives sacrifices, said someone else. We thank God this day for all the anonymous saints of all time.' 

Thank you everyone for being a good friend. Peace be with you. God bless.

Happy All Souls Day

May all souls rest in peace.

Thankful

God’s love remains steadfast and sure. That’s a love we can trust. In times like these, hold on to His promise.

"Be thankful in all circumstances"

Now, i am fully recovered! Kamsahamida ! Need to concentrate for examination. Focus! Maybe i'm too excited for the upcoming holidays. In two weeks time, at time like this, i will be leisurely sleeping on my own bed in my home sweet home . yaaayy !

Once again, Kamsahamida!

12.10.12

It is a nice date today ~ 12.10.12

There are some points in my life where i have nothing more to ask. Everything is more than enough. All i want to do is to thank God. Day by day, i learn to understand every single thing that happened. People who come and go. Things that happen, things that come to me. They leave some wonderful memories in my heart, should be cherished forever. I learn to understand that there are just some things that is not mean for me. Life is a long journey and might end unexpectedly. When we die, we are not going to bring the money we have or the position we hold or the status we stand on or the beloved people around us. It is going to be between you alone and God. Though it is seem to be an individual battle, it doesn't mean we should be selfish. It is the heart that counts and the love you share with others. It is how we accept each other regardless of the physical appearance, wealth, education level or rank. It is how we value the differences that exist in every humankind. Even though we have the faith but it is nothing if it is not demonstrated in actions. Sometimes it is not about being good or bad, it is to do the right thing.

Thankful. Grateful. Blissful.

'Up to one moment in my life, all i want to do is only to THANK GOD for everything'

Despite of all the downs, everything turns out so well. i have nothing more to ask. i have never expected that my last semester result is going to be like that. yes, i still don't understand how i managed to make it. but with God's grace, He makes all things right, He plans everything perfectly. I just want to thank for it. another thing that makes me feel so blessed was the time spent together with my family the night before i went for SYD. It had been such a long time we had never gathered as 'one' family, i might say it had been like 7 years. It was a truly great night for us, the jokes and laughs, i will miss a lot of it. i hope that we could have more time spent together in days to come. the SYD camp was a part of the blessings. even though, my SYD spirit almost dried up, there is voice inside me that keeps telling me to go for it. YES! it was a really wonderful, full of new brand insights and uplifting moments. for everything, i just want to say THANK YOU LORD.

When i reflect everything back, it was quite a tough journey. through the ups and downs, i learn to find myself, i learn to define my stance. i learn to surrender everything, even the slightest one, to God. for everything in my life, i want Him to be the centre of it. 

To some people in my life, i never have the hatred feeling against you all. never want to dislike either. but i was just a bit hurt with some little matters and with that i choose to stay away from some individuals. i never blame anyone for it and never want to. i just want a space for my life, to adjust everything. to put everything in place and to settle it in a proper way. i forgive you and forgive myself too. let just start a new chapter, walk on a new path with new people. i believe God has a beautiful plan for each and everyone of us. it is a plan to prosper us and not to harm us, plans to give us hope and a future :)

I might have hurt some hearts along the way. i am so sorry, i never mean to do it, but it is for good, for us.

'I am unable to give my heart or make any promise because my HEART belongs to God and my PROMISE is written on my vow which only to be given and recited on THAT day with GOD as the centre of everything'

For all the BLESSINGS in my life, thank you Lord.

Thank you Lord :D

I am so thankful with everything in my life now ~

wonderful people ~ family, friends and everyone around me
sufficient daily needs ~ shelter, foods, clothes
life's opportunities ~ study, socialize

for each..
new day, breath, and the lists go on.

I feel so blessed. Everything is just more than enough.
If there is anything i want to ask ~ the thing that I only want is for God to bless all the people in the world especially those who need it the most. I do want to pray for strength to face each coming day :)

Thank you Lord.

It gets better, and much better now

Talking to my mum yesterday makes me feel much better, a lot more better

Thank you mum.

It was a first time heart to heart talk with her,
I can feel the 'special bond' between a mother and daughter,

I cried as i was talking and i know my mum must be crying too from the other side,

I am so sorry for making you worry mum,
For always skipping my lunch and dinner,
and cramming my mind with lots of thoughts,
yes, i should look after myself first and stop thinking about it,
after all, i feel much better :)
yeah, mum knows the best for her children,
and will remember what she says,

for now on, just focus with study,
the future is more important,
don't let this thing stop you from moving forward,
everyone has been to the same place as you..
and they were some who even have to fight harder than you 
but today they are still able to smile

yes, i should not give up,
there are many more wonderful things to be happy for,
thank you mum,
i miss home,
but it's okay, less than 3 weeks i'll be home

Life’s to short to have regrets
So I’m learning now to leave it in the past
and try to forget
Only have one life to live
So you better make the best of it!

Thank you for everything Lord :)

Thanks to everyone

It was a great night!

If i could, i would want to personally say thank you to everyone who had involved directly or indirectly in making the 'Sambutan Ngiling Bidai & Penutupan Pesta Kaamatan' a successful event.

I know that it had been a tiring days of preparation. Sometimes, i feel so tired, not physically but mentally. I had been worrying so much about the event because there were so many things which were still left hanging. I was afraid that the event wont go as what we had planned. Plus the last minutes changes made me feel uneasy. Even at the night of the event, my heart was strained, and keep on saying that everything would be okay.

Thankfully, everything went well. Now, i feel more relieve. I am so happy that everyone is willing to lend some helps, and spend their time during the preparation of the event. To my close-mates, i am so grateful to have you guys there when i needed you all the most.

It had been quite a challenging moments for me. Plus, it was the first time, i was fully involved in organising an event with my two other members under JPP. Out of all, after all the difficulties we had gone through in organizing this event, i have learnt some lessons which are, there is no easy way to achieve something. Sometimes, we have to sacrifice something to gain something. It might hurt us but just endure it, cause the pain will worth at the end.

Above all, i thank God because without Him we wouldn't be able to carry out this event.

Happy Birthday to Myself!

Hello everyone,

Thank you for all the birthday wishes !

May God bless you all abundantly,

Happy living and be blessed!