1 Month left

1 month left and that's it. The same routine will begin soon in few hours. So much mix feeling inside. Trying to comfort my heart between all those thoughts. Holiday had been great but it seems that time is flying so fast this time or isn't that what is happening all these time. Despite of that, I am glad to have a little break in between. So, here it is. Four weeks left. This will be the last teaching phase for me before stepping into the real world of teaching. And this is also the longest time spent with the pupils, 12 weeks, which somehow brings so much mix feelings inside. For the time left, I wish nothing but for us to learn and discover things together as well as to have some good, meaningful and lasting memories. 

Best wishes go to all of my seniors for their posting and juniors for their first day of first phase of teaching practice tomorrow! 

a MUST

I miss those time when I just have to lie down comfortably with nothing to worry, when I just have to sit and let my mind articulates the words written on every page of my favourite novel, when I just let my eyes wonder around and enjoy every scenery around, when I just have to breath in and out. It is not that I am not going to have those moments like forever, but it is just not now. Sometimes, I was rushing on things, my mind can't just stop admiring those piles of loads, dashing here and there, indulging into so much works that in between I lost myself. But that is how reality goes. This is just a phase in life, maybe on the next phase I might get drawn into everything. Yeah, I should comfort my thought that life is a sweet rose and I have to enjoy everything in between. Yet, I should not do so if it is not really so. That sometimes it is okay to see everything is breaking and none is making sense. But to be grateful and appreciative in the midst of chaos, though that may sound totally challenging and impossible to do, is a MUST. Dear heart, let us survive this. One day, we'll be the unbreakable one.

Feel like a poet

Time seems to flow so fast in this practicum season. Days could be like repetitive chores. Sometimes it goes so well that my heart is full of joy. But there are times when I just feel like hiding under the pillow forever. The mental struggles get tough every day. Trying my best to cope in all the situations, stop where I should, hold on if I have to. 

Reminding myself that this is a crucial stage, not to give my heart up at all though the bullets just seem not to stop showering down. It is the final sprint for most of us but that does not mean that the finishing line is the only sole target. But in between, treasure the moments with those people who are running with you and those audiences who are cheering for you. It is amazing how little situation in life, depict the real scenario in life. Running does not exist physically during the sport day but emotionally and mentally in life's sprint. I hope everyone is doing great in all the things they are pursuing into. 

At time, when the heart feels like giving up and losing hope, remind the soul to take one step back and rest a little. Build the energy and courage to step forward again. Life is not a running track but a beautiful path to be enjoyed and savoured, that in each little step there are moments to be remembered,  there are memories that are to be treasured for a lifetime.

*The day when I feel like a poet and decide to look life in a figurative side.