2016 update!

Hello.

So I didn't write anything for the passed months this year and realising the the clock almost tick on the last month this year. How was life? Great as always!

I am glad to the fact that I am still here. Surrounded by people I love. Great job. Lovely kids and everything that just come in between. I wish that I had spent more time on engraving those moments that I have had, but that is okay. Everything is well recorded in my Instagram and Facebook I guess. Still, I miss writing. 

This year, I am just thankful for everything. It is like all the courses are running smoothly and God really keeps me in a great pace. Blessing. 

Milestones. I did achieve some. 

I got myself cling to fitness this early year and lose some kilos. People are talking about it to. That motivate me a lot. And most importantly, I joined runs. I ran for half marathon in my best time. I and had that constant jog stamina. Yet, I am running out of pace these days. I hope I could be back to track as soon as possible. And 1 reason to lose weight effectively in to lower the sugar intake. If possible, don't take it at all. I usually just order a warm Chinese Teh Ping or hot Teh O. Unless I am not in that good mood, you will see Coke by my side.

I went for travelling. Yes, it was an impromptu decision to. But still best things ever happened. Cause that was the time when I get to put away all the unpleasant feelings. I went to Jakarta and Bandung with my colleague. Achievement unlocked!

I bought some *expensive (I would say) for myself. But again when I think about it, nothing to regret. Because I am aiming on living the moment productively and rewarding myself with those things help me to get engage with my task with quality. You know in life you gotta set some standard to yourself and work up to it. Anyway, it helps me to live the moment. 

Work. Not my favourite word but the KIDS. I am in deep love with them all. That is one of the reasons why I love my job so much. I see the growth and progress every day. I got the chance to share and motivate them. Though I am not that motivated all the times. There were days when I have to deal with the parents too. But thankfully up to now nothing serious comes up. And surprisingly, almost everyone is on our side. Kids, we have so much more to do. Let's make more memories!

Lastly, I met him. Yes, we met! 

I am just thankful, blessed with everything. Family, friends, colleagues, everyone and you!

But something that keep me down recently is to the fact that Gary has left Running Man. It feels like part of me are tearing too. No more Monday Couple and Gary. You know that when you are a fan of Running Man, you will get that grieving feeling inside. But that is life. It makes me ponder on things too. Life is like that. Somehow someone or anyone will be leaving though the journey has not ended yet. All the best, Gary oppa!

Not for a moment

And every step every breath you are there 
Every tear every cry every prayer 
In my hurt at my worst 
When my world falls down 
Not for a moment will You forsake me 
Even in the dark 
Even when it's hard 
You will never leave me 
After all 
Not for a moment will You forsake me

TEACHING JOURNAL - WEEK 12

As future educator, it is important for me to develop my proficiency in many aspects, such as knowledge about my major subject, various language skills as well as the life skills and to widen my experiences through the exposures in the journey as a teacher trainee. By going through the 3 phases of teaching practice, it helps me to widen my perspectives in viewing the ‘real teaching world’.

In this third teaching practice in SK Green Road, I had encountered various types of real situations in teaching world which some I never expect at all. I admit that there were days where things were just so challenging and I did feel like giving up. However, through every hurdle I managed to see the positive sides of things that were happening with the guidance given by the people around me. I believe that teaching is not easy yet I come to see that life as a teacher is a blessed one. A teacher has the power to carry some impacts especially to the young souls as well as to touch the life of others along the way.

As human, it is normal to have all the negative feelings and to experience the meltdown points. Most importantly is not to give up easily in every obstacle encountered. To be a future educator, I need to learn to be a ‘multitask person’ as teacher job is not just to teach but stretch beyond that: a manager, a recorder, a facilitator, a mediator, a coach and the list goes on. Thus, it is very essential for me to always be mentally, emotionally and physically prepared for all the things that I will be experiencing in this journey as future educator.

As I am still at the inexperience level, I admit that it was quite hard for me to cope with things around especially in managing the class and ensuring that ‘real and meaningful learning’ is taking place. I feel that it is important for teacher to develop a positive teacher-student relationship in order to create more motivating and fun learning environment. When a teacher manages to be like one, the same positive vibe will be reflected among the pupils too; that they may treat each other well too.

I have learnt that making mistake is part of the learning process. There were days when I feel that the activities conducted were quite boring, not that interactive and too far beyond the pupils’ level of proficiency. Yet, from that I learn so many things which help me to conduct more suitable and appropriate teaching and learning activities in the class.

I come to realize that the most important thing is the real intention to teach. It is not just for the sake of imparting knowledge or completing the job as a teacher but also to develop the personality sides of the pupils. A teacher is to teach and inspire young souls to become a competence individual in every aspect and also to be a ‘wise man’ in making decision in the future.

I am thankful to have wonderful mentor and lecturer who always guide me through this phase of practicum. Indeed, both of them are very experienced, supportive and dedicated! The staffs and teachers are also very cooperative and willing to lend helps at any time. The relationships fostered through the stories shared on their teaching experience inspire me in so many ways. I salute their dedication and commitment in the teaching field. They are indeed great role models. Not to forget my awesome practicum mates and course mates (PISMP TESL January 2011) for the brilliant teaching ideas shared and random jokes cracked which make each day full of happiness despite of all the workloads.

In this phase of practicum I am taking two classes; Year 4 Tun Hussein (English class) and Year 4 Tun Abdullah (PSV class). Honestly, there were days when things get so challenging; experiencing the unstable emotions, questioning the capability as a teacher, and everything that comes together in between. Yet, the moments shared with the pupils always make everything worth and it means a lot to me. Those little souls teach me how to view things differently, to be happy without reason, to be spirit-filled and energetic all the time and to appreciate every single little thing in life. Being with them for three months is only a small part of time spent in their life, but I hope the moments shared, the happiness sparked, the tears shed, and the lesson learnt will carry impacts that will last for a lifetime. I hope nothing but for each and every one of them to be great individuals someday!

Again, thank you so much to SK Green Road for this opportunity to be part of the ‘Greenians’ community. The time spent, the lesson learnt, and the memories made will be treasured in my heart forever! It is true that though the challenges were so great at times, one could discover the joy in teaching if his or her heart to teach is at the right purpose. With all my heart, I believe that this journey as Future Educator is a worth one and the ‘call’ to be a teacher is part of the blessings in my life!

LIFE: 'Subjective'

For all the things that happened or are happening, I have grown so much and I believe everyone does too.

Through the days, months and years, I come to learn that LIFE is SUBJECTIVE. That everyone has their own definitions and versions of it. We might discover the same things and facts in life but the degree of what kind of judgement we put into it are vaguely big, HUGE! 

And the clinche-ly quote always goes 'Don't judge, don't judge, and don't judge!' but the real fact is that people judge all the time, ALL THE TIME! 

For me that is okay! and I would be happy enough knowing that everyone is judging even though sometime it hurts. Why so? Because we couldn't run from not judging others. Why do we learn all and memorize all the Mathematics formula once upon a time: it is no other reason than to make your brain keep on calculating, thinking, analyzing, making the wise decision and be more critical! Which in short: use your brain productively! Just because we learn all the formulas, that doesn't mean that we need to encounter them literally on daily basis, but the implicit skills learnt through the process are the ones should be highlighted. 

I am not practising favouritism of proving everyone how useful the subject is just because I am a number lover. The underlying things that I would like to surface is the reason why people keep on judging and it is okay to do so. 

At some points, we might not realise that actually people do judge but the judgement made met with the expectation that we goal for, and in turn it becomes a compliment for us, a reasonable justification. 

But when it is the negative outcomes, the war starts! All in all, it always depends on an individual how he deals with the situations. Because everything that comes out is a great lesson if we look into it positively. At some points, we have to dare to stand no matter what are against us. Learn to step out from the comfort zone, trust your own opinions and be brave enough to walk on the road not taken. 

For all the things that happened along the way, which some make my faith shakeable, I am still feel grateful because it leads to where I am now, the ultimate blessed state and it is a testimony of how great God's love is.

P/S In case people are judging you next time, let them do it. As life is SUBJECTIVE, you define your own stance! ;)

Becoming a teacher: A blessing!

Every profession is 'special' in its own way. Yet, it depends greatly on one of how he wants to set the degree of specialness.

Why being a future educator is so special for me? Because a teacher is a life saver of someone's entire life. The impact, no matter small or big, that teacher brings to the class could jeopardize one's future or could turn him into a great person one day!

Studying in teacher institute is not just merely of passing the examination, or scoring the highest pointer, or joining activities around campus, or having fun with course mates, or performing in an event, or staying up the whole night just to finish assignment. It is more than that. It is a process to prepare me for the real challenges in the career that i have chosen.

I don't want to graduate with just an excellent achievement in degree course, but i want to graduate with a smile on my lip and satisfied heart seeing back all the journey that i have travelled for years which has turned me to be my 'real' self. I don't want to graduate just as a knowledgeable teacher in my major field, but with the heart to share the knowledge I have with others. I don't want to graduate with just a title as 'Teacher' in my hand, but I want to stand with the title as a passionate teacher. Because the road that i am going to travel later is a long one, and just merely graduating might fade away the 'spirit' in myself. Studying for five and the half years is a room for me to build that endless passion as a teacher who don't only teach and educate but also inspire the heart of young generations. 

Being in college for five and the half years is a great opportunity for me to explore the different sides of myself through the activities, even the simple one, that are held. The assignment given every semester is not for me to just complete it, but it is a medium for me to improve and do better than the previous one. The events held are not just for me to join and enjoy but also a great paradise for me to discover the talents in myself. Maybe, some prefer to travel the journey in just a simple manner. As long as they pass, as long as they graduate, it would be okay. Yes, I do agree that simplicity is the best. But won't it be great to travel on the up and down path, on the challenging road, just like riding a roller coaster which bring a heart pounding excitement! 

Being a TESL student at first was something that my heart don't favour at all. Too hard to cope, especially when doing things that is not for your heart or something that you are not good at. But looking back the journey that i have travelled so far, it is more than worth. I am walking down this path for various 'real' reasons. Not just to be good at what i am not good at, not just to love at one I don't, but to be the 'blessings' for others that I met and going to meet along the way. There are many paths that i have travelled, some bring me to the down side, some to the up side, but i have no regret travelling on it. Because if i haven't taken some paths that are so different from others, i won't reach at this stage of life, and i won't meet the people in this position of life. But i have and i never regret it. 

In this stage of life, with the good and bad things, with the positives and negatives auras, with the up and down feelings, i still and always feel blessed. Indeed, God's plan is greater than i know. 

Becoming a teacher is not just a special call for me, but a blessing! :)
It is a long way to go, but i am sure i am able to go through it with God's grace.

'A Sharing'

'A Sharing'

It had been exactly a year time when this post was published in my blog. On that night one my my lecturers shared some things about her experiences. She told us that.. 'In whatever position we are right now, there is a reason for it. God has His own purpose of making who we are right now. Even if you are single or in a relationship with someone, there is a reason for sure. There is something that we have to accomplish between these 'space and time'. Time travels in one direction, always move forward and never to the past or stop. Hence make full use of every single moment in our life. Chance may only come for once. Never let it go. Enjoy all the things that you supposed to have in your life's stage now, cause when the stage pass you will never ever get the chance to be there again'.

At this moment, i am sure that in this 'position' of life, i have something to accomplish, not only to myself but also to the people around me. It may be big ones or just a simple one, like walking down a road and smile to people who pass by.

'This path might not be the easiest nor the most convenient but it'll be perfect because it's right where He wants you to be.'

Happy Sunday :)

Little things in LIFE

In 4 more months, I will be entering my 22th years old age. Time flies so fast, isn't it? When my parents were at this age, it was the 'perfect' time for a girl be be married. But now, in this new era of generation, most ladies would like to focus more on their studies and establishing themselves in the career as well as to be financially stable before settling down. In between, there are some things that need to be put on hold until the right time come. 

In this state of life, i feel so blessed. Looking into everything, it is so beautiful. Yes, i am thankful despite of all the mix emotions and unexpected things in life. Having my family and friends around complete the circle of my life. I learn to see the little blessings and appreciate each of them. I was knocked down but gain the strength back to get up. Sometimes, i did complain on things but that is how i learn to see the different sides of life. 

When i am at the stable state, God made me to be the blessing to others' life. But that stable state won't last forever either, i do need some helping hands and everyone does too. Humans are created with the good and bad traits as well as with diverse strengths and weaknesses so that they are able to find the balance point in their life. So that, they learn to support each other reciprocally. The differences complete the human relationships. Life is just unexplainable. Different people have different says about life. When you are moving on your path don't fasten yourself forward, learn to slow down and enjoy the ride in life. That is how you will see the little things that matter in life. Life has many chapters too and it is up to us to doodle something on that chapter or just leave it blank for the rest of the life. I choose to enjoy every chapter, put some memories in them. Indeed, God has a great plan for us but we have to make the first step to begin something. 

Above all, I thank God for everything in my life and for making me to learn and see the little things in life.

Happy Blessed Sunday :)

Farewell 2012!

In 2012, i learn to be thankful in whatever situation i am. Everything is just more that enough. Thank you Lord for the blessings in my life. Though things are just so hard, so unexpected, so heartbreaking, so painful, and hopeless sometimes, i am thankful that He always there for me, never fail to lift me up. Thank you Lord. 

Indeed, there were times when i just want to stop being at some places and stop meeting some people. The feeling was so strong but still something keeps me on walking on that road. I am so thankful that people around me, family and friends, never stopping reaching out their hands for me. Never stop  giving motivating words and cracking jokes to lighten up the environment. I am not able to pass the word thank you to each and everyone of you but i appreciate every single things you did. Thank you friends. They are the anonymous saints sent by God to me. 

In 2012, i may have hurt some hearts too, maybe a lot of them. I sorry for it. I may have been selfish at some points. I may have uttered some unpleasant words. I am sorry for everything. 

I just want to be thankful for everything in my life now. For every single thing i have, every single person around me and every single moment that happened. 

Thank you everyone. Thank you Lord :)

Humble

I went back from church last night and had this so powerful feeling inside. I feel like thanking all the people around me. Somehow and somewhere everyone plays significant parts in making who i am today. They are the anonymous saints sent to me everyday. Happiness, sorrowful, joyful, frustrated and whatever feelings that were impacted to me helps to build my thoughts, values and faith. In between everything, i learn the power of humility in life. 

'The greatest miracles are the unspectacular ones; the greatest saints, probably, are the anonymous ones. "Should you ask me: what is the first thing in religion?" wrote St. Augustine, "I would reply: the first, second and third thing therein is humility." What about love? Isn't that first? Without humility love is not possible: there may be some activity of the ego disguised as love, but there is no love. Humility is the altar for which God receives sacrifices, said someone else. We thank God this day for all the anonymous saints of all time.' 

Thank you everyone for being a good friend. Peace be with you. God bless.

Happy All Souls Day

May all souls rest in peace.

My hope, faith and love

Hello there !

How is life? mine? quite hectic, sleepless night, tiring day. But despite of those battles, i am still blessed. Looking back at everything, all was wonderfully planned! Thank you Lord. Yes, these few days had been really a struggle for me. But I survived. Between this business lies some empty ports for me to take at least a short rest. It's weekend ! Yeaayy !

I had written lots of random posts lately and my attitudes were quite shakeable that i had come to some points in my life where i caught myself becoming more demanded that before. It was so different of me. But i guess it is part of the growing process. Trying to balance my attitudes, thoughts and acts. Distinguishing some things in my life. There might be some immature thoughts and childish acts poured around but it have no intention to offence any party. 

Talking about the future, I had my wish lists for it. I had been wishing it since i was in school. Yet, some of the wishes was just a dream, unfulfilled one. It is vanishing away. I had my plan but God has a BIGGER plan for me. Day to day, i realise that i have a special call in this life. It is to touch the heart of the new generation. Becoming a future teacher ~ that is part of the blessings in my life. Along the way, i have to leave some things, some people and some chances. 

Maybe, i don't have the opportunity to study abroad, to experience how it feels to stay in a place with four seasons, and to sit a bus that are full of unknown people. But i know God has a GREAT plan for me. There are reasons why i have  to step on some grounds, to bump into some people, to sit on some chairs, to sleep on certain bed and to walk on certain paths. There are reasons for it. I am not skilled to understand it now. But I believe, it is a wonderful one. 

Life is just so mysterious. I don't know what are the things waiting for me ahead, the people whom i will meet and that someone who will put a ring on my finger. What ever the surprises lie ahead, good or bad, I will always have my hope, faith and love in God.

Thankful. Grateful. Blissful.

'Up to one moment in my life, all i want to do is only to THANK GOD for everything'

Despite of all the downs, everything turns out so well. i have nothing more to ask. i have never expected that my last semester result is going to be like that. yes, i still don't understand how i managed to make it. but with God's grace, He makes all things right, He plans everything perfectly. I just want to thank for it. another thing that makes me feel so blessed was the time spent together with my family the night before i went for SYD. It had been such a long time we had never gathered as 'one' family, i might say it had been like 7 years. It was a truly great night for us, the jokes and laughs, i will miss a lot of it. i hope that we could have more time spent together in days to come. the SYD camp was a part of the blessings. even though, my SYD spirit almost dried up, there is voice inside me that keeps telling me to go for it. YES! it was a really wonderful, full of new brand insights and uplifting moments. for everything, i just want to say THANK YOU LORD.

When i reflect everything back, it was quite a tough journey. through the ups and downs, i learn to find myself, i learn to define my stance. i learn to surrender everything, even the slightest one, to God. for everything in my life, i want Him to be the centre of it. 

To some people in my life, i never have the hatred feeling against you all. never want to dislike either. but i was just a bit hurt with some little matters and with that i choose to stay away from some individuals. i never blame anyone for it and never want to. i just want a space for my life, to adjust everything. to put everything in place and to settle it in a proper way. i forgive you and forgive myself too. let just start a new chapter, walk on a new path with new people. i believe God has a beautiful plan for each and everyone of us. it is a plan to prosper us and not to harm us, plans to give us hope and a future :)

I might have hurt some hearts along the way. i am so sorry, i never mean to do it, but it is for good, for us.

'I am unable to give my heart or make any promise because my HEART belongs to God and my PROMISE is written on my vow which only to be given and recited on THAT day with GOD as the centre of everything'

For all the BLESSINGS in my life, thank you Lord.

'Stranger Inside' 2012

Another blessing comes to my life when I joined the 'Stranger Inside' convoy. I was longing for a fresh air moment and it comes out of nowhere.

So here was the story :)

9 June 2012 ~ first day

The first day of the convoy and I was taking picture with the convoy's shirt. Red was the theme !

The journey was started with a prayer ~ hoping that everything will go well as being plan. There were around 40 of us who joined and 12 cars used. The first destination was Tawau.

The views along the way ware fantastic ! It took us almost 8 hours to reach Tawau from Pitas. We safely arrived to Tawau around 5 pm and straight away check-in to the Kingston Hotel. This was my second time being in Tawau. The first time was on 2006 when I joined the 'Kadet Polis' marching competition. Yes, I remember some of the spots, that i had been to, back then.

Dinner time at Tom Yam's open air restaurant. The night was wonderful even though most of the drivers looked tired after the long hours driving !

10 June 2012 ~ second day

Our morning moment in Tawau was coloured with a wonderful visit to an AUTOSHOW. It was really awesome that all the vehicles was creatively decorated ! After that, we started our journey to Semporna and it was my first time going there !

We did stop at some spots along the way to take pictures ! Take lots of pictures!

Taking picture with my aunt's car. She is the only female driver. Salute!

We arrived Semporna around 3pm and check-in at the Dragon Inn. 

Welcome to Semporna !

Around 4pm, we went to Tampi Tampi Restaurant, one of the spotlights in Semporna. The food was delicious and I still remember the wonderful smell and mouth-watering taste of the Tom Yam soup ! 

We went back around 7 pm, then took a short tour around the area and only when back around 9 pm. 

11 June 2012 ~ third day

Today, we went for a trip to Mabul Island ! A place you will want to go if you are in Semporna.

Group photo before going to the island.

Reached Mabul safely after almost one hour sitting in the speed boat. The views were fantastic. Can't forget the heart-pounding excitement strolling and snapping pictures around the island :D

Mabul ~ I had been there !

Group photo

Pointing at a big group of fishes swimming around with full  of togetherness spirit!

I love this picture ! 

Strolling around the village in Mabul.

I love this one too ! The background looked like it had been painted but it was real !

Around 4 pm, we reached the main island. Actually, we are few hours behind the real schedule and everyone was rushing up to get ready for the next destination which was Sandakan ! It was like 4-5 hours drive. Luckily, everyone made it and we arrived Sandakan around 10 pm. At this point of time, I was really not in a comfortable state after having my skin sunburned ! But still, i managed to get my beauty sleep.

12 June 2012 ~ fourth and the last day

Our morning snap as roomates !

After having our morning breakfast, we headed to Agnes Keith's house. It was one of the historical places.

Agnes Keith's house

After that, we stop for a short visit at the temple. Another spotlight for visitors in Sandakan.

Visit to the temple

We took our lunch, which was the final meal-taking together, at the Sim Sim Restaurat. A seafood lover will love to go this place ! Yeah, just like me.

The journey continued to Sepilok. 

Finally, the journey back to Pitas started. It took us like 4 hours to reach there. Safely arrived around 9 pm. 

The programme was ended in prayer. Thank God that everything went smoothly. I will be missing them all, will be missing 'Stranger Inside'.

I have had a great time following this trip. Even though at first we did not know each other, but it ended as if we were all like one family. Saying farewell to everyone was almost tearing us up. 

The journey along the way was the one that matters the most. Yes, almost half of the times was spent on driving if the sleep hours were not counted. I was really amazed on how they organized this activities. How they support each other along the way. It is not easy to drive together as a group. Not easy at all. The slow trucks, not so good roads' condition, sleepy-night-drive and tiredness were some of the challenges we met along the way. Yet, everything was carefully handled and successfully overcome. 

PS. I wish, really hope, to go for another round of it. Yes, will plan something like this in the future.

Thank you Lord for this blessing :)

Blessed

Kuching to KK 

I met a lot of people on the way, a long and tiring journey but it makes me feel happy and blessed to have wonderful people around.

Some of them i didn't even expect to bum into. But, I knew there are reasons behind it and actually it makes me feel a lot more happy talking to a person whom i haven't meet for a long time. Just now, i went to join the choir practice at the church. Meeting and talking with them all are just like rewinding some old memories, but i believe that memories are part of the blessings in my life.

All in all, i just feel so blessed

Thank you Lord.

It gets better, and much better now

Talking to my mum yesterday makes me feel much better, a lot more better

Thank you mum.

It was a first time heart to heart talk with her,
I can feel the 'special bond' between a mother and daughter,

I cried as i was talking and i know my mum must be crying too from the other side,

I am so sorry for making you worry mum,
For always skipping my lunch and dinner,
and cramming my mind with lots of thoughts,
yes, i should look after myself first and stop thinking about it,
after all, i feel much better :)
yeah, mum knows the best for her children,
and will remember what she says,

for now on, just focus with study,
the future is more important,
don't let this thing stop you from moving forward,
everyone has been to the same place as you..
and they were some who even have to fight harder than you 
but today they are still able to smile

yes, i should not give up,
there are many more wonderful things to be happy for,
thank you mum,
i miss home,
but it's okay, less than 3 weeks i'll be home

Life’s to short to have regrets
So I’m learning now to leave it in the past
and try to forget
Only have one life to live
So you better make the best of it!

Thank you for everything Lord :)

A Glimpse

Today, we had attended a choral speaking competition for Kuching division. It was a whole day programme. At first, i don't really fell like going but something tells me that it worth. Yes, a lot because i caught a glimpse on how my future going to be. I saw many different personalities not only from the teachers sides but also the pupils. Teachers are not only responsible to make sure their teams win but also to comfort their pupils' hearts if they did not win. Suddenly, i feel that being a teacher is not that easy than it seems to be. But, I believe i will be able to make it. less than 3 years, I will be one of them, teacher, educator and INSPIRER !

Indeed, becoming a teacher is a 'special' call and part of the blessing in my life.

you.and.them.are.BLESSINGS.in.my.life

I have chosen these words -you.and.them.are.BLESSINGS.in.my.life- as the title for my blog for some reasons.

The first one is because i believe that everything that comes to my life, good or bad, is a blessing. Yeah, its true that at some points in my life i do feel unsatisfied with the things around me. I complained and blamed people. But after complaining and said those things out, then only i feel a bit relieve. At times, i choose to keep my dissatisfaction inside or just ignore it. After all the bad and moody days go away, then only i realise something. The pain that i had gone through was the one that makes myself stronger each day. It teaches me something about life. I have learnt that there is a reason for everything and it will be only revealed at the end, which is on the right moment.

I still remember the moments where i had lost my spectacles during our drama competition in Sibu last year, that moments had taught me something about being grateful in life. I can't really remember how i lost it. The only thing that i knew that time was blaming myself for being so careless. So, i had to see with my blurry sight for few weeks. I wanted to buy new spectacles, but i was worried that it would cost me a lot of money, cause the price of the spectacles which i lost was around rm200, and that was almost half of my allowance. I don't want to burden my parents asking for money anymore. So i just kept quite and bear with the situation. In class, i almost lost my interest in learning literature cause i can't see the written words on the board. Then, after few weeks, i went to Saberkas with my classmates, and that day i didn't know why i really feel like stepping into the spectacles' shop. Right at that moment, i called my mom and honestly admit to her about my lost spectacles. Surprisingly, she just asked me to buy new one. So i went to the spectacles shop and saw a pair spectacles which was exactly the same with the design and colour of my former spectacles, and it only cost around rm60, almost 3 times cheaper than the former one. That was great!

Most importantly, at the end, the 'moment-of-having-no-spectacles' makes me realise that i am so blessed that i still can see through my eyes even though it is blur cause there are people out there who can't even see a single thing on this earth. We should be grateful for all the things in our life. It is not wrong to complain, just say out all your worry, cause God will be listening all the times. Everything will take place at the right time. good and bad things are surely followed by a blessed moment one day.

I strongly believe that you.and.them.are.BLESSINGS.in.my.life:)

Blessed

I feel blessed to have each single thing in my life. Each of them is a perfect piece that suits every corner of my puzzled life. I don't know what are the things that are waiting for me ahead but I am sure that it will be a wonderful one, something beautiful. I believe and always believe.

I'm home!

I have so many stories to share but don't know which one to start first. But one thing for sure, I am home! Though it was rather dangerous to have a flight at night, especially with the bad weather around, still the 'flying iron bird' managed to safely landed in KKIA. To my dad, thank so much for picking me up in the middle of the night. I miss my home. yaayy!!

Anyway, I have been busy -ing myself with tons of assignments and activities these days!! And yesterday, we had a special assembly to farewell our director as he has been promoted. Congratulation Ayahanda! one thing for sure, you will be missed!! This means after holiday, we are going to have a new director.

I am going to have my holiday for two weeks. The first week is a holiday for me. But still I have to do some assignments which are to be handed in after these holidays. Then, the following week, I am going for my school based experience (SBE), at SRK St Agnes which was my former primary school. Glad to go there but still, I have some nervousness inside. Still wandering how SBE is going to be. Haha. After that, I need to prepare report for the SBE. Hopefully, everything will go well.

I feel that I am one of the blessed people in this world. Blessed to have great family and friends. Blessed to have food everyday. Blessed to freely seek education. Blessed to live in a peaceful country. I am really blessed and so you are people. We should be thankful for every little things that we have.

Because at this moment, there people who are suffering out there, craving for foods and shelters. Some are mourning their loved ones. Others are struggling hard just to breath. Maybe, at this moment we are smiling, but not for Japan. The 8.9 magnitude earthquake in Japan has shocked the whole world. Let just spend this little moment to pray for them.