Paris

I am going to buy a nice 'flat' in Paris. Yes I am. But the 'flat' that i am referring to actually is the 'pair of women's shoes with very low heels' (Oxford Dictionary). I was quite surprised when people thought that it was the apartment. I never thought of that unless i am to be married with some Parisian man. Who knows? Hehe. Anyway, I have always and wanted to go to Paris. I want to have a picture taken in front of the Eiffel Tower. Perhaps, someday.

Mixture of thoughts

Here comes the most packed week for us! Not with activities but tons of assignments. I wonder if teachers-to-be are the only humans who have the most assignments on earth. I am not here to complain. But just to leave a note that i might not be available for couple of days or a week maybe. Hopefully everything will be just alright, run smoothly without too much stress air along the way or stressed people. But don't worry, we are going to make this! Hwaiting to all my tesl siblings and mates.

Remember, i posted something about how we were being quite disrespect with some lecturers weeks ago. It happened again today. Yet, no one is to be blame. I can't read his heart, but his expression showed what he exactly felt. Please don't do it any more. Have some hearts. They deserve respects though they might not speak they way we understand or spoon-feed us with comprehensible inputs. I regard us all as young adults, who know to look for knowledge by ourselves not to solely depend on the lecturers itself. Even though we score high marks, own a beautiful face, have lots of money but without good hearts and attitudes, all are nothing at all. 

At times, i can sense some 'unhappiness' air around. It makes me want to be home. Even though i am so used to be far away from home, but if i were asked the thing i  wanted the most right now, it will be home.

Most of the times, my thought is not burdened by the assignments or my study part but it is mostly on my life. As if something is unsure about the path even though i am doing well. As if something is missing. Dear God, give me strength to face whatever is it that lies ahead. 

Judgmental

Everyone has the right to pour out their thoughts. For me, there is no right or wrong things in this world. It is what you believe the most that influence your judgements on certain things in life. You might think it wrong but for some people it is right thing to do. Overall, it depends on our own stance. What we believe the most, what serve as the basis of everything in our life. We are free to express our thoughts, free to act like what we want to. Still, in everything there is a price to be paid. Certain people might not feel uncomfortable with us. There are some who will condemn our actions. Things happen that way whether to teach us or to help us to balance our own thought. If it is good for us, take it. If not, then just ignore it. Don't be too judgemental. Don't complain too much. If you are to complain then say it in a way that won't hurt others. Even though we were taught to be a critical thinker, think wisely, do things in the way that you believe the most, remember there are prices tagged in each word that come out from our mouth.

I did not talk that much for most of the time. Not because i disagree. Not because i agree too. And not because i am trying to be the good character in every story. But the quietness in me was spent for me to adjust my own thought. I never condemn others' sayings. It is up to them what they want to say but please don't 'bark' things out. 

In most of the time, it depends on us how to perceive things. Bear in mind, that people do not have the same thinking. Yes, it might be the same thought but the belief might be varies at different degree.

Camps in a row

SYD & BIG camps done ! Tomorrow will be another camping, which might be the last one for this semester. It is a UB camp, KRS and i am super duper excited for it ! can't wait for all the adventurous activities ! Out of everything, i really enjoy camping. I have always love camping since ages !

P.S. Have you ever dreamt of going for a date with someone ? I did and it was really really a great feeling!

Thankful. Grateful. Blissful.

'Up to one moment in my life, all i want to do is only to THANK GOD for everything'

Despite of all the downs, everything turns out so well. i have nothing more to ask. i have never expected that my last semester result is going to be like that. yes, i still don't understand how i managed to make it. but with God's grace, He makes all things right, He plans everything perfectly. I just want to thank for it. another thing that makes me feel so blessed was the time spent together with my family the night before i went for SYD. It had been such a long time we had never gathered as 'one' family, i might say it had been like 7 years. It was a truly great night for us, the jokes and laughs, i will miss a lot of it. i hope that we could have more time spent together in days to come. the SYD camp was a part of the blessings. even though, my SYD spirit almost dried up, there is voice inside me that keeps telling me to go for it. YES! it was a really wonderful, full of new brand insights and uplifting moments. for everything, i just want to say THANK YOU LORD.

When i reflect everything back, it was quite a tough journey. through the ups and downs, i learn to find myself, i learn to define my stance. i learn to surrender everything, even the slightest one, to God. for everything in my life, i want Him to be the centre of it. 

To some people in my life, i never have the hatred feeling against you all. never want to dislike either. but i was just a bit hurt with some little matters and with that i choose to stay away from some individuals. i never blame anyone for it and never want to. i just want a space for my life, to adjust everything. to put everything in place and to settle it in a proper way. i forgive you and forgive myself too. let just start a new chapter, walk on a new path with new people. i believe God has a beautiful plan for each and everyone of us. it is a plan to prosper us and not to harm us, plans to give us hope and a future :)

I might have hurt some hearts along the way. i am so sorry, i never mean to do it, but it is for good, for us.

'I am unable to give my heart or make any promise because my HEART belongs to God and my PROMISE is written on my vow which only to be given and recited on THAT day with GOD as the centre of everything'

For all the BLESSINGS in my life, thank you Lord.