Turning point; graduation & work

It had been months away from the first day I have officially teaching and graduated! Leaving me with three weeks of settling the last phase for this year of schooling. It has been a great turning point for me.

Graduation. From the bottom of my heart, I really wish to go for another one. Because things really didn't fall to it place that day. It was too crowded, too rushing. But no worry, it was an experience. Perhaps, going for another one in few years to come!

At the very beginning, I was supposed to be posted to a school in an island but due to some reasons I have been assigned to a new school. And I love everything about the school! It takes me 3-4 hours drive to reach the school. For family, I wouldn't mind to spend 7-8 hours on the road unless there are extra works to be done on weekends. The pupils, colleagues, staffs and even parents have been very supportive and happening! Though I have 31 periods per week plus some sides administrative works, still it didn't burn me out. Perhaps, some times. But I take it as a training and challenge to get me through the rest of my years in teaching. Sometimes, I just love spending the weekends here, away from the city and crowds!

This is just a year of introduction. A year to enrich myself with new skills, build networks and keep on adapting. Gonna step on more stones on the coming years!

Hello!

It has been a while or better pronounce it a long kind of while being away from this site. Life is moving to the right direction as what it has been planned at the very beginning. Finished college, graduated and now proudly announcing that I am finally a working young adult! But still the rolling didn't go anywhere. The path is still full of ups and downs. Sometimes, as always, life is phasing to fast! At the blinks of eyes, I am here!

Here. Standing on this ground. Looking at thousands pairs of eyes which are filled with unspeakable dreams and hopes for what coming next. Yes, at some points, that feeling of frustrating and tiring always comes for visits, staying for days or more.

But fate is for real. There are thousands of unveiled reasons why it has to be here.

For at the very beginning, my thought was charmed to the fact that one who is moulded since young to run will easily learn to swim when he is thrown to the sea. Sadly, it was a wrong turn. Struggles, hard work, perseverance.

But amazingly, after all, it is good to listen when some of the young souls never fail to make you believe that you are there for reason. Reasons.

'Kalau Cikgu tidak jadi Cikgu, tidak lah Cikgu jumpa kami. Nasib Cikgu jadi Cikgu'

For now, good is enough. :')

Not for a moment

And every step every breath you are there 
Every tear every cry every prayer 
In my hurt at my worst 
When my world falls down 
Not for a moment will You forsake me 
Even in the dark 
Even when it's hard 
You will never leave me 
After all 
Not for a moment will You forsake me

The day

There is a day when it gets just so tiring of repeating the same things over and over again. The day when it gets too much that it doesn't give out any feeling anymore. For the time being, let just treasure the best we could. Dear young hearts, you'll always the special ones. I don't want to just get through the day. But I would want us to make the best out of each moment. And I know, it is a cyclic feeling. They will come and go but the moments and memories will stay forever.

Those anticipated moments

When I was in my primary and secondary schools, I was in blue sports team. I guess, that was a kind of sign for the things that is happening now. Teaching year 4 Tun Hussein, who are in the blue sport team too, sparks an unforgettable experience that touches the deepest part of the soul.  

One of the most anticipated things in school is my pupils, or better pronounce as my former pupils. I just don't know why I always have this strong feeling inside towards them. Perhaps, those three months together engraved so much memories. I won't deny it that there were days when things were so bitter that I couldn't hold my tears any more, if I could, I would want to just get over with everything that moment, but my heart doesn't want to give them up. I remember some of the first moments together which was on the 'Sorry Party'. I am totally in awe of how they managed to get it done. That was the first time when I failed to hold on myself that I just burst out of the class when the lesson ended and didn't talk to any of them. I knew that was so immature sulking act ever. But things were directed in the other way around and it touched my heart a lot. They came out with a plan to throw a party for me. They even had the floor plan which was photocopied for all the class members. They collected money and bought boxes of KFC. They made a banner, arranged themselves in rows, asked me to stand outside of the class and waited for the surprises behind the door and all sorts of things to ensure the party will be a success. That day, I was speechless, feel awkward, and in total awe. And that was the day when I just feel that they are more than the special ones for me. I might not talk or close to all of them, but I am assure that we have that strong feeling inside. Every now and then, they always brighten the days especially in this toughest month and those coming ones. I guess all of us, the final semester trainees will have that feeling of being overloaded inside. But just a simple greeting and smile from the young ones, it breaks through everything. And I couldn't deny that I miss them all a little bit more each day.

For the 3 weeks left with them, I just want to treasure and cherish everything. They will always be the special ones in my heart for when I look back at our memories, my heart smiles.