LIFE: 'Subjective'

For all the things that happened or are happening, I have grown so much and I believe everyone does too.

Through the days, months and years, I come to learn that LIFE is SUBJECTIVE. That everyone has their own definitions and versions of it. We might discover the same things and facts in life but the degree of what kind of judgement we put into it are vaguely big, HUGE! 

And the clinche-ly quote always goes 'Don't judge, don't judge, and don't judge!' but the real fact is that people judge all the time, ALL THE TIME! 

For me that is okay! and I would be happy enough knowing that everyone is judging even though sometime it hurts. Why so? Because we couldn't run from not judging others. Why do we learn all and memorize all the Mathematics formula once upon a time: it is no other reason than to make your brain keep on calculating, thinking, analyzing, making the wise decision and be more critical! Which in short: use your brain productively! Just because we learn all the formulas, that doesn't mean that we need to encounter them literally on daily basis, but the implicit skills learnt through the process are the ones should be highlighted. 

I am not practising favouritism of proving everyone how useful the subject is just because I am a number lover. The underlying things that I would like to surface is the reason why people keep on judging and it is okay to do so. 

At some points, we might not realise that actually people do judge but the judgement made met with the expectation that we goal for, and in turn it becomes a compliment for us, a reasonable justification. 

But when it is the negative outcomes, the war starts! All in all, it always depends on an individual how he deals with the situations. Because everything that comes out is a great lesson if we look into it positively. At some points, we have to dare to stand no matter what are against us. Learn to step out from the comfort zone, trust your own opinions and be brave enough to walk on the road not taken. 

For all the things that happened along the way, which some make my faith shakeable, I am still feel grateful because it leads to where I am now, the ultimate blessed state and it is a testimony of how great God's love is.

P/S In case people are judging you next time, let them do it. As life is SUBJECTIVE, you define your own stance! ;)

A world to run

I know that title is a bit ambitious, or should I said it too much? A lady like me to run a world? Impossible? But let make it possible! As everyone has the chance to make differences, why don't start a little thing which in turn could spread a great rippled effect around, and even to the world! okay, I shall stop that philosophical doses!

Almost two weeks off for holiday and it feels awesome! So much things happened and so much stories need to be written out. Perhaps, I shall work as a typewriter this holiday, should I? Okay, get things direct to the point. I know it is still not yet the end of year, but still let gets some things summarised;

2013: Two semesters done: 5th and 6th. Rooster. Class Retreat. Teaching Practice 1. Exam. Mid-Sem breaks. Miri Dancing. BCF Dancing. Teaching Practice 2. The Journey 2.0 Camp. BTN Course. Singapore Trip. Musical Night. Annual Dinner.  Exam. HOLIDAY. KL-Malacca Trip! 

Oh, I feel like I had won the World Championship Award! Did I? Yes, in my own midsummer dream! But yes, that feeling of being satisfied is totally there. At least, there are so much moments treasured in between despite of all the hectic schedules, mixed-up-down-feelings. Opps, sorry for marking myself as the 'most busiest person in the world', don't worry everyone deserves the title too. And I am still young, I shall embrace the joy of being young adult and channelling all the energy into the positive entertaining vibes around!

Plan for holiday: most of the time spending time with my families and act like a boss, but no bossing around! Cause this might be the last-relaxing holiday I have as years to come I might be drowning myself to other things, venturing to more challenging life getaway or perhaps grooming newly found hobbies! Still, I do need to be more productive this holiday, not just for the sake that next year will be the final but for the long haul! 

Dear May, get up, you got a world to run for! ;)

Be AWESOME!

'A Letter from Heaven'

Dear God, grant peace in their souls. RIP. 

Miles Apart

I never thought that my days in SMESH will be filled with wonderful memories which is a lifetime lasting. Not just about the memories, but the people I met, knew and connect with! Being together, as a group, or perhaps like a 'gang' has no intention to create any gang-up culture. Yet, the friendship among the 11 of us is unconsciously built but intended by Him. He has reasons for putting each of us on the line, regardless of the time of meeting. And yes, so much cherish-able memories created in those years until this moment.

 4th - 7th Nov 2007 marks the first trip we made through together (excluding Jenny and Nancy). It has been 6 years since then. I miss those moment! Honesty, I have no idea that I am going to meet such wonderful company which are more than friends, they are like sisters! I miss those days spent together, telling dramatic stories, laughing, shedding tears, eating, singing, dancing, portraying some so-called-teens-crimes and the lists go endlessly. I couldn't write everything descriptively because it will take forever. High school days, they always remain me of good old times, memories created that are imperishable. 

Though we are now stepping on different ground, get rarely in contact or meet, but still the bond is strong, so strong! And sometimes, I thought that we could read each others' minds that at the point of breaking, some of them will show up at that exact moment. God must have created us in such away that even we are miles away, we are inseparable and unbreakable. It is not just about being understanding or accepting each other flaws but more than that. Most of the time, it is putting up with each other, the good and the bad, the right and the wrong, the best and the worst. Yet, just because we look perfect together doesn't mean we never experienced conflicts, we did and so many of them. But the blessings that come together with the friendship are strong enough to win against the all odds.

Though we are miles apart, but we are close at heart. On one fine day, we shall get together and drunken ourselves with the best friendship's toasts ever!