First week in IPBL

I had gone through my 1st week in IPBL and everything was just unpredictable!

Our institute is still in 'upgrading' process, so there are constructions all over the place. I hope that everything will be finished in time. We got a new cafe tender but the food is a bit expensive for me. There were just so much difficulties that i had to adapt with in this first week after my long holiday. yes, i do feel home sick but i am so used to it already. For now, everything is fine. I just need to adjust myself a little bit.

Last Thursday, we had our 1st public holiday because of the heavy rain around Kuching. It was a happy 'hours' for us as we got to enjoy our beauty sleep and rest with a comfortable atmosphere around. So cold, as if I was sleeping with the air-cond being turned on. But, that day turned out to be 'tragedy' after a girl was found death because of the flood from the heavy rain. This incident happened just a distance away from our college. I feel so shocked after hearing this news from my roommate. It touched me to know that there was a kind-hearted guy who did not know how to swim tried to save the girl but unfortunately he was drawn away by the flood. It was so ironic that i got to enjoy my life but on the other side some people were fighting hard for their life. Life is just so unpredictable.

I was surrounded by guiltiness for these few days for not being able to complete a simple task. I had been so irresponsible for these few days and selfish! I know it is a little thing and not many helping hands is needed, but being irresponsible make me feel so guilty and not worth to stand on that position. Yeah, i shouldn't be there at the first place. It only left few months, i just hope that i can do something to at least be worth of receiving the certificate later. At least, becoming a bit responsible and lessen the complaints. Yeah, i just don't like to neglect the things that had been assigned to me, that is part of my responsibility even though i do not have any intention to take the post at the very first place. But i know that there is a reason why i am there.

My mind is still pondering over the question that my lecturers had asked us few days ago. It was a bit worrisome and i feel that my front sight is getting a little bit blur. Is this a right way to go? I hope so.

It is only the first week but it gave me a lot to think about the road ahead. I just hope that everything will be fine.

Have a blessed Sunday :)