Spiritually Single

I'm ready to move forward and leave the past behind. I'm emotionally ready to take the next step. I'm ready to take on the next adventure. I'm ready for a new chapter in my life.

Lord, I pray for a man that really loves you more than everything. A man that lives not for himself, but for you. He must know for whom and what he lives, so his life isn't useless. Someone that has a wise heart, not only a smart brain. A man that not only adores me, but can warn me when I'm wrong. Someone who will take my hand and walk together with me on Your path. I pray for him to come on the right time as You have planned for me. Amen.

Lord, i give you my heart. Don't let it fall for anyone, not for the time being. I just want to spend this moment with my family, friends and to focus on my study and future. I know You will make everything beautiful on the 'right' time.

It gets better, and much better now

Talking to my mum yesterday makes me feel much better, a lot more better

Thank you mum.

It was a first time heart to heart talk with her,
I can feel the 'special bond' between a mother and daughter,

I cried as i was talking and i know my mum must be crying too from the other side,

I am so sorry for making you worry mum,
For always skipping my lunch and dinner,
and cramming my mind with lots of thoughts,
yes, i should look after myself first and stop thinking about it,
after all, i feel much better :)
yeah, mum knows the best for her children,
and will remember what she says,

for now on, just focus with study,
the future is more important,
don't let this thing stop you from moving forward,
everyone has been to the same place as you..
and they were some who even have to fight harder than you 
but today they are still able to smile

yes, i should not give up,
there are many more wonderful things to be happy for,
thank you mum,
i miss home,
but it's okay, less than 3 weeks i'll be home

Life’s to short to have regrets
So I’m learning now to leave it in the past
and try to forget
Only have one life to live
So you better make the best of it!

Thank you for everything Lord :)

The sweet 21

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 

to myself !

okay, that awkward moment when you are singing birthday song for yourself! LOL!

How the day start?

Before the clock struck at 12 am, I had already received birthday wishes (yeah, Agnes was the first one! ). And after that, more wishes come which makes me happy happy and happy. Then, I woke up this morning at 6am something, thanking God for being alive for 21 years, took my shower, get ready, rode on uncle kim's van, reached the Camelite church ! yeee.. After the mass, we went to Saberkas, took our brunch together. Today, I was really blessed that I had my brunch in a small fellowship circle. Like everything was planned in the right timing. After that, we went for a short stroll around Seberkas and went back.

Reached the hostel and i took my sweet sleep. I woke up around 4pm then stalking people in FB. After that give some calls to my friends! good to hear from them

(Chiba will remember what you said :P, and wait for me to be LAGEN... wait for it... DERY !!).

Finished with the conversation, I went for my evening jog or it supposed to be stroll. the weather was so good to me! Then went back, took my sweet shower again and sit in front of my laptop until 12 am, 7 may 2012.

Anyway, i would like to say thank you to everyone for making the best day in my life. Thank you for the wishes, for being there always with me. Thank you to my lovely besties, olivias, for the cute hair band, love it so much! thank you for making my day everyone. Be blessed and happy always ! Don't stop smiling because smile can automatically make you happy !

I am blessed and thankful that i have received the greatest gift in my life for the 21 years of living. I have made up my mind for certain things in my life and will never regret it. So sorry for being emotional for the last few weeks, or should it be months already. I know things happen for a reason. I have to go through the moment of pains for me to be on the happy side. Thank you for bearing with me. Your understanding is greatly appreciated. Thank you. 

So now, my new 'azam' is to be happy and life live to the fullest (yes, it is kind of clinches saying those words). After all, i just feel so much 'free' inside. This is the life that He has given for me. Thank you Lord for the words and making me stronger than before.

I am now 21, independent single lady, happy and blessed with wonderful people around me :D

and one more important thing, i received a call from my another darling.. c ellye yg plg chubby!! hehe.. xba, ely plg kiut :) hehe tq ely sbb dgar crta sy yg plg emo n pnjg d dunia :P haha

Pilgram to Medan

This is my short update on my first oversea travel.

This was supposed to be posted like few days after the trip, but because something comes up on the way, i have to delay it. Because of this delayed, I can't really remember some of the places' name, sorry for that. And friendly remainder before you scroll down the pictures: this is the MOST CHUBBIEST DAY in my life (so far), don't be surprise!

10 MAC 2012

My flight from Kuching to KL was on 9 Mac, so we waited at the LCCT for the whole night because our flight to Medan was on the next day, 7 am. There were almost 50 of us. The time in Malaysia and Medan is about 1 hour different. The flight was supposed to be 2 hours flight but because of the different time zone, it only took us like 1 hour to reach there. So here we were, my sister and I.

Then, we straight away headed to the hotel which is located in the city, Asean International Hotel. We took our breakfast, or supposed to be brunch because it is already 10 am something i guess. After that, check in to our room and then went for short outing around the city. 

Then, we went to a restaurant for lunch. After that going back to the hotel for short rest and change. That evening, we were to attend a mass at Maria Annai Velangkani Church which was located almost 1 hour drive from the city. The design of the church is so wonderful and unique. You will be amazed with it.

The mass ended around 8 pm, and then we went back to the city for dinner and sweet sleep.

11 MAC 2012

We woke up very early in the morning with everything packed because on this day we were going to an island, Samosir Island. The journey took us like 3 hours and we did also made some stops along the way. We did also visit the 'Maria Groto'.

And like sis Tiara had mentioned before on Danau Toba, yeah, I made it there. The lake is so big and truly beautiful. So peaceful like 'heaven'.

Before heading to the resort where we were to stay for that night, we visited a small village in the island. It is a historical place, but i can't recall the story behind it. But there were just so many souvenirs sold there. My eyes were melting seeing all of them because i am a fan of 'tropical-kind' style.

After finished with shopping, we went to the resort which i forget the name. But it is a nice place to stay. I love it so much because it was so windy and the sea look was just so amazing! 

After dinner, we went back to the room and took our sweet sleep after the long tiring journey. There were more to go on the next day !

12 MAC 2012

After packing up and taking our breakfast, we went back to the main island. This time, we will be heading to a small town, Baristagi. 

We did made some stops along the way. We stop for refreshing tea at a place which looks like Kundasang.  

Then, we stopped at a place where the main water source of the Toba Lake was located. 

We arrived at the town at noon and perfect time for lunch. After lunch we checked in and prepare ourselves for the evening mass.

 The mass ended around 7 pm and we straight away headed to the hotel, and took our dinner. Then, good night sleep.

13 MAC 2012

The day start with a morning breakfast and morning stroll around the market in the town. 

After that, we went to 'Air Panas' panas like Poring. For the first time, i saw volcanic in front of me ! Yeah, the water source of the 'Air Panas' was from the volcanic and it is really good for skin. 

The rest of the day was spent on our journey back to the city, a stop for 'durian-eating-time', lunch, shopping at the biggest mall, preparation for mass, mass at Maria Annai Velangkani Church, dinner, packing up everything and sleep !

14 MAC 2012

Good bye Medan

Thank you for the great and unforgettable trip, will come there again someday if there is another chance.

If you notice, the activities in this pilgrim were mostly on visiting places even though it is a church activity. But i feel that the journey and the feelings we had along the way was the most important. It is one way of refreshing our body, mind and soul. The real meaning of it depends on the individual himself. For me, i have gotten some wonderful insights along the way. This pilgrim is truly a blessing for me. Thank you for everything, Lord.

And 1 more, the best thing about Medan was the FOOD. i just love eating and that is why i was sooooo chubby or should it be 'fat' that time!

Someday

I hope this tears will stop running someday

Someday after this darkness clear up

I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears

When I feel that I’m getting tired of looking me exhausted,

I want to give all my dreams I’ve kept hard

Every time I feel that I’m lacking in many things more than I have

I lost strength in my legs and drop down

I hope this tears will stop running someday

Someday after this darkness clear up

I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears

Everyday I hold out comforting myself “it’ll be alright”

But it makes me afraid little by little

I tell myself to believe in myself, but I don’t

Now I don’t know how longer I can hold out

But wait it’ll come

Although the night is long, the sun comes up

Someday my painful heart will get well

I hope it helps me now.

I hope the God will help me

I don’t have enough confidence more and more to overcome myself

I hope this tears will stop running someday

Someday after this darkness clear up

I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears

But wait it’ll come

Although the night is long, the sun comes up

Someday my painful heart will get well
Someday… Someday…