a MUST

I miss those time when I just have to lie down comfortably with nothing to worry, when I just have to sit and let my mind articulates the words written on every page of my favourite novel, when I just let my eyes wonder around and enjoy every scenery around, when I just have to breath in and out. It is not that I am not going to have those moments like forever, but it is just not now. Sometimes, I was rushing on things, my mind can't just stop admiring those piles of loads, dashing here and there, indulging into so much works that in between I lost myself. But that is how reality goes. This is just a phase in life, maybe on the next phase I might get drawn into everything. Yeah, I should comfort my thought that life is a sweet rose and I have to enjoy everything in between. Yet, I should not do so if it is not really so. That sometimes it is okay to see everything is breaking and none is making sense. But to be grateful and appreciative in the midst of chaos, though that may sound totally challenging and impossible to do, is a MUST. Dear heart, let us survive this. One day, we'll be the unbreakable one.

Feel like a poet

Time seems to flow so fast in this practicum season. Days could be like repetitive chores. Sometimes it goes so well that my heart is full of joy. But there are times when I just feel like hiding under the pillow forever. The mental struggles get tough every day. Trying my best to cope in all the situations, stop where I should, hold on if I have to. 

Reminding myself that this is a crucial stage, not to give my heart up at all though the bullets just seem not to stop showering down. It is the final sprint for most of us but that does not mean that the finishing line is the only sole target. But in between, treasure the moments with those people who are running with you and those audiences who are cheering for you. It is amazing how little situation in life, depict the real scenario in life. Running does not exist physically during the sport day but emotionally and mentally in life's sprint. I hope everyone is doing great in all the things they are pursuing into. 

At time, when the heart feels like giving up and losing hope, remind the soul to take one step back and rest a little. Build the energy and courage to step forward again. Life is not a running track but a beautiful path to be enjoyed and savoured, that in each little step there are moments to be remembered,  there are memories that are to be treasured for a lifetime.

*The day when I feel like a poet and decide to look life in a figurative side. 

Two Hearts

1/3 of the final phase!

Finally, I have made it to 1 month, which left 2/3 journey. 

Yes, there were days when things get so challenging, not just on the unending workloads every night but attending all the words poured in the classroom. It is a great challenge to listen to all the pupils' requests at one time. I wish I could just attend one person or few souls at a time, but no, I have 38-40 pair of eyes to look after in the class, not to mention things outside of the classroom. Though it is just like one hour per day, but still it is not an ABC task. Yet, looking on the positive sides of everything, it always motivates my heart to see their spontaneous and pure acts. It wipes away all the tiredness and moans inside. For the two months journey left, I hope that I could leave something that is not just meaningful for their learning but also lasting for their souls. 

It really amazed me to see how those teachers stand firmly at the teaching line for so many years. Their souls must be the 'unbreakable' ones after all those times and I hope I could be like one someday.

"Teaching is a service to God. We may not save lives, but we save a generation."

DWAYG Season 1

Finally, the first season of Appa Odiga has ended. Tons of memories made between the father and the child. 55 episode all together. This show does not only highlight the journey travelled together but also the relationship between the dads and children that grow along the way. The playful and cheerful nature of the children always entertain the heart. At some points, there are honest inner voices portray by them which shed some tears. I hope the next season will carry the same positive vibes as what the first season had reflected. Appa Odiga daebak! ;)