My nature

I have tons of tasks that need to be completed now. But, I just feel like writing something.

Let me start it like this; it is part of my nature to tell stories, and my favourite stories are the collections of my own 'descriptive stories'! my close friends know that it is part of my habit to tell story descriptively without any pause. Sometimes, I even repeat the same story to the same person over and over again. Yet, some (maybe everyone) might notice that I am not a talkative person on the first time meeting/knowing. That is true. This is because I need some time to find the foundation ground to let the newly made friendship grows. So here, I am so sorry if during our first meeting, I seem to be quiet and can only smile over things. But later when you know me more, you will find that I can talk without pause and joke around like a crazy one.

When I don't have any mood, I will be quiet. Quiet like a total grave which sometimes sounds scary I guess! This also happen when I am sad or angry. When I feel sad, I don't like to tell it to everyone. I rather cry alone and comfort myself though it takes time. But when the burden is too heavy, I will at least share it with someone or ask people to pray for me. But honestly speaking, I prefer to keep the sad feeling all by myself. Hehe. I don't like to boast out my anger or say the **** word. It is not that I am acting like a good girl here but that is just not part of my nature. I rather be a 'quiet' person which also means I need some time to be alone; some time to ponder on my life. Out of all, I really hate being stress or pressure. I just don't like these kind of feelings. So, I always get rid of it by playing sports or at least to jog. By doing so, I will feel more lively. I love myself and I don't want myself to suffer from those horrible feelings.

I don't have any particular characteristics or whatsoever when it comes to befriending with anyone. The thing that I need is just a time to adjust the common ground for us to build the friendship. I don't care if she/he is someone who is uneducated, liar, awful, horrible, smoker, drug addict, or whatever, I still can befriend with them. Because I believe that everyone has their own reasons to do such things in their life. One thing for sure, people change all the times. So, the good ones will not be good forever. 

 I just want to be myself, good or bad, that is me! I don't care if people want to judge me, let them do it. They have their right. But for sure, only me and God know the reality,

My rule is simple: live well, learn plenty, laugh often and love much!